I've found a friend who died for me

Heh with the recent release of the "A" level results, i guess many 19 year olds were either happy, disappointed or somewhere in between. well after all the "A"s do determine admission into uni and since uni education does sorta determine where we end up in our future careers, i guess you can say that it would be one of the most, if not THE most imporatnt examination in our life. and so the results were released and i saw amongst the various 19 year olds i know a rather diverse mix of reactions. some were contented with their 3 or 4 As along with their Cs or Bs in GP (yes i think its super hard to get an A in GP) or KI, whilst many others weren't that happy with their A along with the other Bs and Cs. some were so disappointed that they didnt even dare to face their parents.

I guess that yeah in the end it really is all about the reslts. thats the main purpose of education isn't it? to get results and ultimately and education and a job. well i personally havent been exactly doing well in JC these past year and 2 months or so. my defiition of not doing well = not passing ALL my subjects at any one examination. well yeah i guess on my part i have been lazy (though i think physics is really just ...) but somehow i feel that results shouldnt define who we are and what we an be! i mean, yeah sure results are important there's no denying that. but i guess that there's really much more to life, and faring poorly at a major examination doesn't really mean that you're doomed and condemned and are sure to fail in life. haha

I guess people these days especially us students have to really learnt to take things esay and more in our stride. ima sure that all of us that have learnt to do so would find life, especially ths stressful one that im sure many of us have, much more easier to handle! i mean life's not gna be any easier in future and learnng to take things in our stride will definately help us cope better when the REAL challenges come up in future! so yeah stidents, lets work hard and put in our due effort but if our results dont come out as expected, dont worry or get discouraged! just do better the next time! ALL of us are meant for something GREAT! trust me. =)

Hello people =) im back after almost 7 or 8 months of silence. Surprisingly this blog is still around with the tagboard and stuff. haha i thought tey would have removed it or something. why this sudden urge to blog again? maybe bcos dad got a new laptop which he says is "mine" but he takes it when he goes overseas. but ohwells haha i guess its better than nothing!

Well much has happened this year and year 2 life is seriously much much tougher than year 1 life. not to mention of coure the added syllabus and sccool workload but also with all the added responsibilities in CCAs and stuff. but hey i'm still doing fine so thank God! =) also this year i've started morning prayer sessions with a few of my classmates zhongs birdy salad and terry! haha. well i guess its just something that God had been speaking ont my heart, to relly just gather the christians in my class and pray for our classmates! at the same time to be accountable to each other!

well march holidays will soon be over haha so enjoy while you can before we head back to school to collect our dreaded CT results! haha hopefully this time i can clear all my papers whch should be possible haha since physics H1 paper was rather manageble. but well to those who didnt do as well as they expected, don't be sad k! i always tell my friends results are important but they shouldnt define us as a person! theres so much more in life to live for! so let PRESS ON!

haha just some pictures. im pretty new at this picture posting thingy.

classmates of 07S52! Bernetta so extra crash the picture.

girls from S52! somehow i think that in all the pictures i take, my eyes look like they're closed. i wonder why.

Got back my fantastic results for mid years. Did "surprisingly" well got GP and Econs got E and a D well it was quite good considering what the rest of my classmates got and the cohort as a whole for econs. haha. But yeah i think VJ's really saddistic reminding us and giving out our promotional exam timetable like 7 weeks in advance. But yeah time really flies and before you know it promos are here so yeah gotta buck up holidays are over.

I must say that this year has really been, well and eye-opening one for me if you would. A whole new environment, a whole new lifestyle, new friends, new classmates, new teachers. I can say that i've made a few good and close friends along the way, friendships that go way past the superficial level. And i really would like to thank God for placing these few around me. Cause really sometimes when all's not wel be it at school or at home, all we sometimes really need is a friend to pour out our problems to, someone who would just listen. And really i'm beggining to see some of the gifts that God has gave me coming into play in this new environment. I've always felt in my heart that i had been given the gift of encouragement and comfort, and really i have seen this gift that i have being used to comfort those around me who sometimes face difficulties or problems and i'd really like to thank my creator for giving me such a wonderful gift.

thank you lord for giving me something to live for

The Stand

Hillsongs United

You stood before creation

Eternity within Your hand

You spoke all life into motion

My soul now to stand

You stoodore my failure

Carried the Cross for my shame

My sin weighed upon Your shoulders

My soul now to stand

So what can I say

What can I do

But offer this heart O God

Completely to You

I walk upon salvation

Your Spirit alive in me

This life to declare Your promise

My soul now to stand

So I'll stand

With arms high and heart abandoned

In awe of the One who gave it all

So I'll stand

My soul Lord to You surrendered

All I am is Yours

I really dont know what to say. So much has been happening. And i just feel that the world's now such a sad sad place. It wasnt meant to be like this.

We actually dont realise how blessed we are, till we actually take time to count our blessings. haveing great friends, a loving family, good health, all these things we take for granted. When things dont go our way we say our life sucks. But hey take a good look at your life, you are blessed whether you realise it or not.

So hey. Count your blessings, cause you might never know when it'll all just be taken away.

Read this off althea's blog ( who read it off someone else's blog), and i found it to be really meaningful. A christian isnt someone who's spotless. A christian isnt someone that's never done wrong or will never do wrong. A christian isnt someone thats holier than others. A christian is someone that has been touched by the grace and love of God. As simple as that.

I'm a Christian by Maya Angelou
When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i'm not shouting "i'm clean livin'.
i'm whispering "i was lost,
Now i'm found and forgiven.

"When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i don't speak of this with pride.
i'm confessing that i stumble,
And i need Christ to be my guide.

When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i'm not trying to be strong.
i'm professing that i'm weak,
And need his strength to carry on.

When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i'm not bragging of success.
i'm admitting i have failed,
And need God to clean my mess.

When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i'm not claiming to be perfect.
my flaws are far too visible,
But God believes i am worth it.

When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i still feel the sting of pain.
i have my share of heartaches,
So i call upon His name.

When i say... "i am a Christian,
"i'm not holier than thou.
i'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace somehow.

And i guess this song below really says it all.

Amazed

Lincoln Brewster

You dance over me

while I am unaware

You sing all around

but I never hear the sound

Lord I'm amazed by You

And how You love me

You paint the morning sky

with miracles in mind

My hope will always stand

For You hold me in Your hand

How deep how wide

How great is Your love for me

Well these couple of weeks have been really, well , testing in that sense. You know everytime i go attend a youth conference or go to church camps, i just get so fired up for christ, wanting to win the world win my campus for him. I get visions dreams of the many great things that my God can do through and in me. Yet somehow when i get back home, when the door closes and im all alone, that fire soon extinguishes and dies. And i slump back to way i was before, unassuming living each day as it comes, not living the life that i want to.

This sorta got me thinking. Cause at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter if you're at a hillsongs or planetshakers conference jumping your hearts out feeling so powered by the holy spirit, what matters is that when the door closes, when no ones looking, when all else is quiet - do we still have that fire and passion in us to live out God's plan for us? What matters is the decisions that we choose to make, the friends we choose to hang out with, the values that guide our lives.

Im real tired from slipping back into that state of disconnectedness from God and i would really like to live life knowing that He's in charge of it all , be it in the area of studies, friends and relationships, and that i'll never ever have to worry.

Surrender

Chris Tomlin

I'm giving you my heart,
and all that is within
I lay it all down
for the sake of you my King

I'm giving you my dreams,
I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride
for the promise of new life

And I surrender all to you,all to you
And I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm singing You this song,
I'm waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear,
I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You
for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy,
even sharing in Your pain

HEH the mid years was a disaster. And apparently my class thinks the same way too. After every paper i see them smiling, albeit for the wrong reasons. " Jason how the paper? " No reply just laughter. Well i guess that says everything. Heh. Well cant blame anyone i guess i myself studied like half an hour the day before my physics exam before feeling so hopeless that i just went to watch TV. Haha. All i can hope for now is not to get S S S U or worse. haha.

Recently i've seen so many friends and classmates around me bugged by relationship problems and BGR and all that. Being loved and having someone to love i would say is one of the most important and satisfying feelings a human can and should have. It's really the basis for us feeling happy in that sense. ( VJ students remember GP??) But yeah i'm actually a die hard romantic that believes that for every guy there's a specific girl out there for him and vice versa. Its really just a matter of waiting. And i will say that the patient (not as in sick person lol) will be rewarded. So yeah it's just a matter of waiting.

So yeah my advice to those looking for a relationship or are already in one, be patient to know that he or she is the right one before committing yourself fully to that relationship. A good and healthy relationship will definitely bring benefits to you and your partner but a relationship entered just for the sake of entering it wil only bring trouble and bitterness in the future. So yeah wait and you'll be rewarded. Trust me. =)

Apart from that i was horrified to find a crack on the bottom of my beloved taylor. Its a guitar for those of you who dont know and i treat it as my wife. So imagine how you would feel if your wife has a very big cut and it seems really painful. Yeah thats how i feel i know its a lousy analogy but its the best i can think of. So bringing it down to hospital for treatment on monday. Yup there actually is a guitar hospital here down town at dhoby ghaut area. haha how cool is that.

Till next time.

Well my blog's just about dead. Nevermind im back. Hur Hur.

Well it's been about a month or two since i last blogged. Alot has happened, from our SYF to Perfect Fifth guitar concert, to the newly concluded family camp at melacca. trying very hard to catch up on school work in preparation for the mid years which are just creeping round the corner in a week's time. Hoping that by some miracle i'll be able to finish revising everything and be able to at last pass my mid years.

Well all i can say is that this period of time has been a testing one. Due to school and cca and stuffs i guess that i really just disconnected from God. And i can say that a life without him by your side really isn't all to pleasant at all. It's like living a life of no meaning when each and every day you go about doing the same things, performing the same routine, with the knowledge in mind that all this would come to an end when we leave the earth.

You know whats tragic? Death isn't tragic. It's dying while you live. That's tragic. It's not having a purpose to live for and just whiling your time away on this earth that's tragic. yeah dying while you live.

And i can say that i've really experienced that in the last few months. JC life isn't all that easy with school work and cca committements and stuff. But like his word says the joy of the Lord shall be my strength. And im thankful that i can draw strength from him. So i know that when the world throws what she has at me, i can be assured in the fact that he's right there above me dancing while i am unaware. =)